you know it’s one thing having him not really in my life but for him to fight my mom on the child support because there raising it, so you call her and complain about it and i pretty much hear her bitch about it to me like i don’t know he’s a peace of shit already. i mean come on he’s not even in my life anymore just because you call every 3 weeks and hold a 2 min conversation with me mean’s nothing. and every time she talks about you she thinks i don’t care and just roll’s my eye’s but yeah it is more then that. but it’s also more for you to tell him how you feel because you always say it to to like i can do something! you gotta be the mom and take his ass to court. i mean come on now. i already know that i don’t have a father and hearing about it and getting reminded that he’s not a good dad does not help because i already know. every time you bring it up it gets me so mad. i already know your the best mom in the world and you play both roles. when you say how do you not see do and hang or go weeks with out talking to your kids you act like i don’t know / or it does not bother me, the truth is it kill’s me but what do you think?? that he’s going to care about what i say or how i feel like he has in the past no he wont. you think it does not hurt me that i see other dad’s act love and spend time with their daughter… i already know what it’s like not to have a father and i am sick of hearing about it. and dad i know you’ll never read this and i know no one in my fam will ever see this but when i have my kid’s they will be the number one thing in my life. i will always spend time with them like one day their going to wake up and be 40 years old. i will love them forever and never take them for granted. i already know that’s how you see it. but let’s face it mom I’m getting to the point where i am 17 years old. he has not tired to been in my life. he has not called. he does not have insurence for us. he does not he offers nothing for us i get the point. i get that i dont have a father. i get he’s never there. i get if he walked out on us now i would not feel any pain because it’s’ like he already did so i don’t know why you remind me how much of a shitty dad he is.. because mom i already know i known for a very long time. and only if you knew how much i completly agree’d with you. but little do you know you think it gets me upset. i mean of course it does and it puts me in a not talking mood. but not because im mad at you because i know how right you are and for once i wish he realized it. but sadly i know he will never realize it. thanks tumblr for being there.